Feelings of you

I miss the way I get lost in your eyes
I miss how your scent invades me when I hug you
I miss your childishness
I miss the way you make me smile
I miss the way your eyes sparkle when you look at me
I miss the spontaneous passion
I miss the whispers of your love
I miss  the fast beatings of my heart when you smile at me
I miss the goose bumps on my skin left behind by your touch 
I miss being abandoned in your arms
I miss how your lips are hungry for mine
I miss the way our bodies seem made for each other
I miss the way you make the world seem perfect
I miss how you never say you love me, but you always show it
I miss you, I miss the self I am when I'm with you, I miss us

I wish upon a star...

   I'm pretty much staying at home these days and let me tell you, it's boring. For a person who likes to be alone, I get extremely bored. I'm pacing around the house in order to find something to do. I always end up in front of the computer, reading, watching movies or chatting with people at home.

   It's strange, there is mixture of things going on inside me, like fear of failure, loneliness, sadness, but also peace and optimism. I was writing on twitter the other day that I'm not an optimist, but a 'hoper'. I always hope things will get better, and hoping has helped me so many times before. I don't know what the future has in store for me, but does anybody know? If you do, share the recipe of finding out your future (no tarot cards or witches involved). I just wish I had a job already, have my own money in order to find out how things work in this country and to be on my own. Also, I'm praying really hard that everything goes on well and I can help my family back home who has made some major financial sacrifices for me. And I hope I can bring my best friend here, so I won't be so lonely.


'If i could wish upon a star
Then i would hold you in my arms...'

(Samantha Mumba - Wish Upon A Star)